Day 4 – Hump Day Blues

I don’t normally suffer with the hump day blues, in fact I usually look forward to my mid week break before all my crazy activities start again. Although it’s not really a break, it’s more of a clear up and preparation mission in readiness for the second half of the week!

I often think, if someone were to take music away from me, I don’t know what I would do…maybe I would take up knitting?? Anyway, I tried to make good on yesterday’s Hump Day Resolution…it partly went to plan but I have to say that I did learn (after nearly 20 years) the importance of scales. I hated scales as a teenager. Thought they were pointless. Today I learnt that just my knowing my Piano scales I worked out (without really noticing) the fingering for a section of music and I do think it was down to scales…ever so slightly beginning to love scales!

Motivation, I think, is still my problem. I want to be a higher level musician now, without putting in the blood, sweat and tears…but deep down I know what needs to be done and I have to keep going; like Nemo’s dad said…”Just keep swimming…just keep swimming”!!


Day 3 – Confuzzled

Today has been a strange day. I’m surprised I have made through in one piece to be honest…yep still in one piece…just checking. Not sure whether it’s lack of sleep, too much sleep or way too much sugar!

Is it just me that suffers with these confuzzled heads? So far, not a good start to my little plan of attack…Hump Day (Wednesday) resolution…must try harder to get brain in gear!

Day 2 – Monday ugh!!

Mondays seem to be the only day that my dog, Jessie, decides to sleep in past 6am and it’s the only day that I wake the moment that my alarm goes off and I instantly start running through all the things I have to do and all the places I have to be that week.

Each week is pretty much the same. I don’t know why I have to run through the week like a checklist…but its a reminder. A reminder of what i’m working for and all that I have to achieve to make it happen.

So Mondays is running night. I start the week with a 5k run with the intention of going out at least twice more in the week…but there’s always an excuse…it’s too late…it’s raining blah blah blah…it’s you’re job from now on to ensure that I go…rain or shine…cold or hot…I’m counting on you.

Day 1 – The Revelation

This morning I was woken at 5:30am by my extremely needy dog, Jessie!  This is no different from any other morning but this morning I was particularly irritated.  There are so many, questions and what ifs rolling around in my head that my poor little brain is exhausted and I just wanted to hibernate until a clear path had emerged. If only!

Although I’m exhausted I invited my Dad to dinner this afternoon.  I would never cancel.  He does so much to help me and making dinner for him every other week or so is my way of saying thank you.  Anyway as I was making Chicken Tikka Masala in my new Pampered Chef Stoneware dish I was watching Julie and Julia.  I’ve seen it before, but it’s like it reminded me that life is tough and some of us loose our way.

I know how that feels, I was lost for such a long time. I then found what I truly believed I should be doing and what makes me happy; whether anyone else believes this or just thinks i’m crazy I don’t care. But for some time now I have been avoiding the truth of what I have to do…and that’s to go back to university. I’ve been putting it off for years! My concerns stem from the fact that I’m older, I have mortgage, two dependents (a cat and a dog!). How would I afford to live etc etc…this is why my brain is so overloaded.

I’m now determined to take that leap but I still have a tough journey ahead, which I know and I’m prepared to take on. So here we go, I have 480 days, that’s 1 year, 3 months and 22 days to achieve my goal. In that time, I only have to loose at least 3 stones, achieve Grade 8 Singing, at least Grade 6 Flute and at least Grade 1 Piano. It sounds simple, but time and money are against me! Wish me luck!